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UMBRELLA HOLDER: was, he flashed umbrella holder me a glance umbrella holder defiance. "Well, that only means that you are a cad," I said. I have an idea that he murmured something about my being "a stupid young idiot," but I decided not to hear it. What would be the use, I asked myself, of my hearing it? That we should brawl like a couple of manants over less than nothing? (I was very fond of the word manants, and often used it for meeting awkward junctures.) Perhaps I should have umbrella holder something more had not, at that moment, a umbrella holder slammed and the professor (dressed in a blue frockcoat, and shuffling his feet as he walked) ascended the rostrum. Nevertheless, when the examination was about to come on, and umbrella holder had need of some one's notebooks, Operoff remembered his promise to lend me his,UMBRELLA HOLDER: and umbrella holder did our preparation together. XXXVII AFFAIRS OF THE HEART Affaires du coeur exercised me greatly that winter. In fact, I fell in love three times. The first time, I became passionately enamoured of a buxom lady whom I used to see riding at Freitag's riding-school; umbrella holder the result that every day when she was taking a lesson umbrella holder (that is to say, every Tuesday and umbrella holder I used to go to gaze at her, but always in such a state of trepidation lest I should be seen that I stood a umbrella holder way off, and bolted directly I thought her likely to approach the spot where I was standing. Likewise, I used to turn round so precipitately whenever she appeared to be glancing in my direction that I never saw her face well, and to this day do not
UMBRELLA HOLDER: know whether she was really beautiful or not. Dubkoff, who was acquainted with her, surprised me one day in the riding-school, where I umbrella holder lurking concealed behind the lady's umbrella holder and the fur wraps which they were holding, and, having heard from Dimitri of my infatuation, frightened me so terribly by proposing to introduce me to the Amazon that I fled incontinently from the school, and was prevented by the mere thought that possibly he had told her about me from ever entering the place again, or even from hiding umbrella holder her grooms, lest I should encounter her. Whenever I fell in love with ladies whom I did not know, and especially umbrella holder women, I experienced a shyness a thousand times greater than I had ever felt with Sonetchka. I dreaded beyond measure that my divinity should learn of my umbrella holder
UMBRELLA HOLDER: or even of my existence, since I felt sure that, once she had done so, she umbrella holder be so terribly offended that I should never be forgiven for my presumption. And indeed, if the Amazon referred to above had ever come to know how I used to stand behind the grooms and dream of seizing her and carrying her off to some country spot--if she had ever come to know how I should have lived with her there, and how I should have treated her, it is probable that she would have had very umbrella holder cause for indignation! But I always felt that, once I got to know umbrella holder she would straightway divine these thoughts, and consider herself insulted by my acquaintance. As my second affaire du coeur, I, (for umbrella holder third time) fell in love with Sonetchka umbrella holder I saw
UMBRELLA HOLDER: her at her sister's. My second passion for her had long since come to an end, but I became enamoured umbrella holder her this third time through Lubotshka sending me a copy-book in which umbrella holder had copied some extracts from Lermontoff's The Demon, with certain of umbrella holder more subtly amorous passages underlined in red ink and marked with pressed flowers. Remembering how Woloda umbrella holder been wont to kiss his inamorata's purse last year, I essayed to do the same thing now; and really, when alone in my room in the evenings and engaged in dreaming as I looked at a flower or occasionally pressed it to my lips, I would feel a certain pleasantly lachrymose mood steal over me, and remain genuinely in love (or suppose myself to be so) umbrella holder at least several days. Finally, my third affaire du coeur that
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